For me, it was very tumultuous. I had to ride on so many roller coasters that my nervous system is still healing.
It is beyond my understanding, but I continue to do yoga, meditate, study the bible, and try to have hope. Hope that I will get better slowly but surely every single day.
I want to be a good wife, mother, and sometimes the most difficult show kindness to myself.
I never had the luxury when I was growing up to have anyone really care about me in every aspect. Honestly, we didn’t have all the required needs fulfilled (i.e., shelter, food, etc.).
So, my mental and spiritual needs were never even attempted. Now, I have the ever presence of the Spirit and can’t but embrace His calm waters. It is the thing I strive for every single day.
Even though the pain of my past slips out on occasion, I always follow up with an apology and love. I am far from perfect; we all are.