Come and take all my resistance.
For the sad, lonely, and underappreciated. We are a community of misfits that need each other for encouragement.
10.29.2018
10.27.2018
Coming Up Empty
I am bereaved by the notion
that you were there for me.
I am wise to the way
that you feed your ego.
10.26.2018
Call to Action
Weeding out the tendrils that exist in your mind is tiresome.
Capturing the scope of your belligerence is nonexistent.
You moan and groan but get nowhere.
10.24.2018
Reasonable Service
When held to the fire,
I always wither.
I need you more then ever
when I become despondent.
Please lift me into the inner realm
of your mercy.
10.23.2018
Horror
I can't move....
I am engulfed in pain and grief.
Why didn't anyone notice and try to help?
Why didn't you see that I needed help?
It was too much for me then and now.
I cannot fathom the responsibility you should have done.
Do my tears mean nothing?
I am engulfed in pain and grief.
Why didn't anyone notice and try to help?
Why didn't you see that I needed help?
It was too much for me then and now.
I cannot fathom the responsibility you should have done.
Do my tears mean nothing?
10.22.2018
Not a Beggar
I will not resort to the weak and beggarly ways any longer.
Do not tempt me with your cunning language,
It ignites an anger that is stronger than indignation.
10.21.2018
Headstrong
Constantly in motion in pursuit
ever wandering for satisfaction.
Diligent to find a gem in the rough
never pressed to look inward.
10.19.2018
Brother in Arms
You carry the burdens of those before you,
you carry a diagnosis that is not yours.
The savageness of your grief is too belittling,
it is overshadowed with shame.
Time to rise up and become anew,
brush off the debris of mistakes and awaken.
10.18.2018
More Determined
You believe I am undeserving,
you believe I am broken.
But, I will walk into the blessings.
I choose God's strength in my own weakness.
10.17.2018
No Water
Reasons unbeknownst to us cause us to waver.
We believe our God is disapproving of us,
we believe we messed up again.
We draw inside for strength and resilience only to be dry.
10.16.2018
Mean Voices
These disparaging voices in my head are too loud!
They bully me into believing that I have no worth,
they make me believe that I am unsavable.
10.12.2018
Not Broken
"We are not what we have lost,
we are not what has been taken from us.
We must cherish what remains.
We are not broken,
we are each as whole
as we will ever be again."
From: "Call the Midwife", S7:E8
10.10.2018
10.09.2018
Possessed
You wrestle with it night and day,
always unaware of the internal battle.
You believe it to be the circumstances,
you believe everyone is against you.
But there is a better way.....
let go.
10.08.2018
10.06.2018
10.05.2018
Distraught
This pain is too much.
When I look inside and tap into it,
I cannot stop crying.
I'm in pieces.
10.01.2018
Molestation
I always knew something had happened to me. I even tried
bringing it up with my mother several times, but she never told me anything. I
think she must have thought how convenient that I forgot everything.
I was raped by some friends of my parents whom they gave
their consent. This must sound unfathomable, but when you realize my parents
are addicts the unfathomable becomes more possible.
I was left alone the next day, but fortunately near water so
I could wash my dirtiness off. That’s what I’ve been left to believe for myself
since no one spoke about it. I was left to believe that it must have been my
doing that brought it on. I must have done something wrong.
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