I weep for you,
you deserve better.

It breaks my heart
to see your pain.



Oh the nagging and disparaging remarks 
you make over and over in my mind.
You keep reminding me of my mistakes, 
how I chased you and not God.

You keep showing me the population of people 
who are following your lustful ways.
You keep tearing down my defenses, 
but I am on to your ways.

You have no authority over my mind or my soul.
You must bow down to the one who is stronger.
You must go back to where you came, the lake of fire.



Watch out for the evil of this world. It will disarm your defenses slowly but surely. It will muddle with your conscience and strength. Do not be thrown off course.



I feel like I’m right on the verge of feeling like a butterfly. I have one last lie to uncover and I just can’t wait to be who I am meant to be. I feel like all the barriers are coming down. I feel like I am finally at the heart of who I really am.

I believe the last lie is that I have never felt beautiful. All the things done to me and all the bad decisions I’ve made have made me feel dirty to the core. I feel like I was made this way, like nothing can change it. But this is a lie.

The truth is I am beautiful exactly the way I am. I don’t have to try to be anyone else but me. I am designed to perfection to be used for more than I can realize. I have meaning in this life.  I have purpose. I have more to offer than just weeping and self-destruction.

I want to make a difference. I want to change the world. I want more.