5.29.2019

Day 3: Questions

Don't worry about so much;
I've got it all under control.

5.26.2019

Heart Conflict

You see how loving and kind he is,
you see how he longs to please you.

You genuinely care about him,
you see all that he is.

You see how special he is
and that he loves you back.

But you see how your boss
belittles and shames him.

You see how she does not
genuinely care about every child.

You see that she has
many faults of her own.

5.21.2019

Compassion?

Put your phones down;
stop thinking about yourself.

Look at me.

Do you not see the tears welling up
and streaming down my face?

You choose to ignore me.
You run on your treadmill of self,
not caring for your fellow man.


See Me
Medium: pastel, watercolor paint, and oil pastel

5.18.2019

Day 2: Prosper

The tree of life is available
to those that cling to Jesus.

5.16.2019

Day 1: The Poor

The poor are not to be banished,
they too need compassion and love.

Do not look away; see their pain.

Symmetry

Pyramid

Dinosaur

Medium: water-color paint on tracing paper

Forgive Yourself

I'm lost in the void:
I remember doing wrong things
and yet knowing I'm not responsible.

I don't understand how
to undo what I did except
to let myself off the hook.

5.09.2019

5.08.2019

Fear Beyond Understanding

I uncovered a repressed memory last week of my father strangling me. But what is even more remarkable is the fear it has released inside of me. It was trapped inside and I didn't know why until now.

This is how I know fear is beyond our comprehension. I actually fainted because of it. It makes no logical sense at all that I would just faint out of the blue, except that I just identified that my biggest fear was to see my father again. I am so grateful to not have seen him since I was about six years old. But, he e-mailed me out of the blue.

I'm actually scared to death of him.... well was. It all had to come to the surface in order to acknowledge the fear he instilled in me. It manifested itself in my body in such a way that I had to "relive" the most fearful moment in my life. Not in every detail, but in its own way of showing me.

I mean I just know that so many of us have had terrible things done to us that we may or may not remember. I pray that God will give you the grace needed to uncover whatever hellish thing you need to in order to move on with your life. It has been terrible and wonderful at the same time for me. I am so grateful to release this fear and pain.

5.07.2019

Shock and Awe

"But his flesh upon him shall have pain, and his soul within him shall mourn." (Job 14:22)

Wow, talk about a verse portraying exactly how I feel without me having the words... truly amazing.

I had another repressed memory wash over me last week. It was the cherry on the top of the sundae I had already remembered. My father choked me until I passed out. I mean this could mean attempted murder, correct?

I just don't know what to do with this information. I'm in shock somewhat still.

5.02.2019

Face-Off

You cannot persecute God's children
without facing Him.


5.01.2019