8.22.2019

Two Perspectives

There are always two ways to look at things.

For instance two people with the same issue of not getting what they needed growing up can display this inadequacy two ways.

The first wears their heart on their sleeve. They are easily liked. But yet you know they are incomplete. They are compulsive with something be it food or some other drug of choice.

The other type has a wall built up so they can’t be hurt. They have a persona that keeps others at a distance. Yet those of us with the same deficiency are drawn to them.


We are living in a nation right now that “feels” out-of-control; everyone is on edge. And I mean everyone.

We all need to pick up our own “peace pipe” and find a way to do something for someone else. Don’t look at it as a favor, but a good deed.

If everyone in the world did this, our world would look completely different.

8.03.2019

Self Medicating

In case you need to know the difference...

CBD oil will mellow you out, help you sleep, and come down when using anything with THC.

So if you need to use marijuana on occasion, don't forget to use some CBD oil as well. This is truly what your brain is craving. No judgment.

Understanding Feelings

I know, if you are a regular reader you might want to know why I got so upset.

Well, I got clarity on it. When I and probably many of you were children we were not allowed to express our feelings. How dare we show any anger, right?

Well, now that I have been so carefully taken care of by God and really only God for so long now, I have a difficult time expressing myself when my feelings get hurt.

I am finally at a place where I can share my feelings with my family.

It's been so long since I've had to connect with my feelings to make sure I'm not looking at a situation from the wrong perspective.

So take my last post for instance... was it the most loving place? probably not. But I was so convicted on the point that I needed to express it. It was a judgment call. It was a gut reaction, not a feelings reaction.

We need to be able to stand up for ourselves as well when we know it isn't a good situation for ourselves. We have to be able to step away from the relationship.


When we give love we should be able to expect love back... period.

Nurture Yourself

8.01.2019

Pervasive Corruption

Your selfishness astounds me;
with your flare for dignity,
however only received.

You gratuitously speak of yourself,
pouring into yourself alone.

I am confounded by your ignorance
since you are such a scholar.

I am disgusted with your lack
of compassion and love.

7.30.2019

For the Ladies in the House (Part 2)

Right after I turned nineteen, I joined the United States Air Force. The number big reason was to get away from my dysfunctional family.

I got accepted in a nine month technical school. Right before I graduated, I went to a party with all my classmates. I got black out drunk and got date raped by two of my male classmates.

Not where you thought this was going? Well, too bad. Sorry, I'm just a little pissed off today. I never had the luxury of knowing it was that at the time. Apparently, there was nothing wrong with two men taking advantage of a woman without her consent. Why?

I want to know why.

And in case you missed the first, "For the Ladies in the House"....  here is the link, https://www.refugeformisfits.com/2019/03/for-ladies-in-house.html.

No More Doubt

Freedom

7.29.2019

Bird

I want you to know that I feel your pain.

I feel the cage your in.

I feel your need to be understood.

I feel your need to be free.