1.10.2021

Flipping It

I was abused by a married couple. They planned on raping me for some time. They set fear so deep inside of me that when the even occurred, I immediately buried it deep down inside never to see the light of day again.

At least that is what had happened until two years ago. The wife was a nurse and she was good at keeping me quiet. The day after the incident she alone was with me. I had no choice but to bury my secret.

But now I can see that it was a bit of a gift in disguise. The truth could only come out in a loving and supportive environment. This is where I am.

So I choose to confront my past with the viewpoint of hope for the future. Why? Because God would not have allowed that to happen to me if it wasn't going to be used to help someone else.

I hope to spread some love to all of us who need it the most.


1.03.2021

Always

There are awakenings that are just too dark and ugly to accept.

There are truths that no matter how much you want to believe are beyond understanding.

There is pain that cannot be extinguished.


You are not alone.


Know that you do not suffer by yourself.

Hold you head up just a little bit.




12.22.2020

She Devil

 I trusted you,
I even loved you.

But you broke every fiber of my being
when you held me down.



12.13.2020

Mini Me

 I need to bury you,
I need to move forward.

You pull me back,
you fight for my full attention.

But I need to let you go.
Please, go to heaven and be at rest...finally.




12.05.2020

Spiritual Condemnation

There are those that are wolves in sheep's clothing in the church.

This has occurred in history for centuries. It is absolutely true that there are leaders in our churches today that claim to be following Jesus with their whole hearts, but please know this is not entirely true.

They lay and wait and conceive ways in which to sway believers. It can happen to anyone, even other church leaders.

They all individually have their own motives. On the final day, we will surely see who they are.


11.29.2020

Hurt

When you are raised around mean people, it is inevitable you will continue on this path until you fully realize it to be so.

I was emotionally abused all my life, even with my first husband. It is humiliating and adds more shame to the mountain that already exists.

The pain that can be inflicted on you can be from family members, coworkers, medical staff, and even your pastor.

I know; it's quite too much for anyone to undertake. But you must walk away from anyone who is causing you any pain.

It can be lonely. But remember you've at least got me cheering you on.


11.22.2020

Upright

I know your bully. 
I know the heartache you feel.

You definitely belong to God.
You definitely are his child.

Don't allow the enemy to take you away.