I have been harassed by males all of my life. Gratefully, not by my husband. Maybe that's why I can see the difference in the way I should be treated.
PTSD is a complex cloud of confusion and shame that masks itself. We feel like we are fine and functioning just fine except when we get treated wrong.
You just know it in your gut that it is wrong, but all the fear rises up and all you want to do is fight or flight. The clarity is not there. Just the fear.
Wow! I didn't understand it for myself until just now as well. Thank-you for being here for me. I hope this helps you.
With sympathetic tears I hope with all of my heart that you are uncovering your pain with the support and love you deserve.