Spiritual Abuse

I share this post with a heavy heart. I am still in the midst of forgiving my spiritual abusers.  I am flabbergasted that I have become prey to this pervasive problem in the church today.

I know that I have endured all kinds of abuse as a child and this is probably why this is hurting me so. Also, since I have relied on a real and sincere relationship with God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit for so long now I can't even understand how someone would have the absurdity to control that very same relationship.

I am livid.

So, I apologize on behalf of the church out there that are making a bad name for us believers. I wouldn't want anything different in my life; my only true and real thing is that God loves me. This is a very personal relationship for me. One that is so dear for me that I am willing to forgo everything in my life to maintain it.

Does this sound strange? I don't know how to explain it in words. My only reliance in getting better is that I have sound judgment from God. I can search the bible and find that my needs are important. All of them.

So this recent set back has really got me halting in my tracks. As a result, I have lost my spiritual confidence. But only momentarily. I haven't lost my real relationship. I can still read the bible, praise and worship, and rest assured this is meant for something good as well.

I don't know what else to say. I want to let anyone reading this that I have an open door; if you have suffered from this kind of abuse based on any reason I am here to communicate about it if you feel open to it. Please use the message button and I will get an e-mail. Then when I can, I will respond with whatever you may need.

Let me help you become confident in your own relationship with God. Never let anyone tell you how or what that should look like.

I pray that you have the confidence to grow in your own relationship in the freedom of your own house just like I do.