I've been on a journey of healing for a number of years now. When I had a kind of emotional and mental breakdown about seven years ago, there was no way I would have believed I'd be where I am today.
I really thought my life as I knew it to be over. I definitely contemplated suicide. I definitely stayed on my psych meds for a year as a kind of punishment.
I was so self-destructive.
Now, I really can't believe how good I feel. I know why I had a breakdown. I know why I have had so many dysfunctional relationships.
It is truly a miracle that I am this whole now.