When I was a child, I just wanted someone to see me. I wanted someone to see all my pain and shame and to really see inside. I wanted to feel like I didn’t have to hide it. I just wanted to feel like I was alright.
I am unraveling all the wrongs that were done to me and it is just so difficult. I don’t know how to navigate through the pain. It is overwhelming.
I don’t want to be mad at him anymore, but I just don’t know what else to feel. I want to move on but can’t. I’m not stuck; I’m where I’m supposed to be. It is out of my control.